im back, but as an arm chair critique or maybe a lobbyist

its been a long time since my debating years, but since then not one day goes by that i dont keep up wit world news, i have recently also polished up on my international laws, UN laws and Treaties, its been a blast, but i guess im too rusty to be put in the front lines of battle, im more of a political analyst now than rather being the senator or congressman fighting in behalf of the people, if I had the chance to squeeze debate in my heavy schedule i would, but a new world, new responsibilities, plus goals, one of them is to get better at tennis and maybe get into wimbledon, i just cant seem to find a proper sparring partner.. you know more of my age, the only blokes i get to challenge are int their late 30's - early 50's and dont get me wrong those wankers can hit the ball harder than a 18 year old, which is good, but i really really would like to play within my age bracket... i guess i just have to stick it out
anyways going back to my pseudopolitical life, I have been thinking of taking law, but thats a pipe dream... or is it? what you recon?

one things for sure there is the fire to improve and to learn...
young(18)
fit(tennis player, but can play any other sport as well)
focused(achiever)

straight edge

a new year another birthday, i turned 18 last month, and now im older people think i should be wiser, i dont... i feel exactly the same except that my body structure from last year and this year is seamingly bigger than before. When i say this i mean that if my face was small its a bit bigger now, not in the sense ive packed the pounds, in th sense that im starting to develop an older male body... which is ok.. my relatives and strangers around me still think i look like a 16year old kid, but i mean they are kinda true.. and at timew even younger... i was at the movies a few weeks back with some of my friends and amongst the group i was the only one who was asked for ID for a PG 13 movie... how lame was that.. tell you what everyone else behind us were laughing...
so anyways why straight edge? most teens would think its a hair style but for some its more than just a fashion statement or a choice of grooming its the everyday utensils or tools we work with whether at the office, school, and even at home... yeap im talking about sharp objects that can slice, dice and cut... its been a while since i last cut and that good, but recently ive been wanting to, but what for? my life seems totally fine but that would be an over statement, i guess it can be fucked up at times, but who's isnt...
ive been try to supress the feeling of cutting for at least 3 days now, very impressive right? i guess so..
but cutting isnt like a drug, its the pain you channel out, the frustrations, now in psychology you would be classified as menatally imbalanced, but i would beg to differ, really...
when you angry you either vent or supress the feelings
and when you supress you get it all bottled up till the jar cant contain anymore,
now istead on going balistic and mental on others (which could get you imrisoned)
i think its better off channeling the feelings in a better way, now im not insinuating self mutilation or hrting oneself is healthy and normal, but to those who so do it, give them something else to think about, something else to drown their attention to, the pain of the wounds...
and i guess its that pain some look for
as i am writing this i so happen to have noticed that next to my laptop on my desk the whole time was a sharp pair of scissors,ooooww tempting...
i will not tell you what happens next, it is up to you to decide what happens, but let me tell you this, a lot of people cut because of people who look down at them not because they cut but for who they are in the first place, and after that its down hill from there... so think hard before you judge before its to late for someone else...