why are other people always right!!!

I dont know, I was thinking of recent events and what happend lately and kinda came into my senses... "damn other people were right!!!" I just kept side swiping the issue all the time but it always seems to come back...
people(i.e. friends, family and even [qualified as both evil and good] foes) were already telling me "why do you even bother hangout with them it clearly shows you dont fit in..."

I kinda realized it yesterday during lunch time... I was in the new canteen in school around 1:30pm and I was with 3 other friends on the table (gemmo, lawrence and ez) I just sat there and kept quiet because I had no idea what they were talking about... I wasnt listening the whole time but it made my mind wonder and I started thinking while also linking everything together and stuff... and there is was it came to me[boom!!!] "damn I really dont fit in... "I mean I used to call Carlo, Lawrence and LA (former buddies... I dont have a clue if they still like me... ) "the elite 3" cause when they get together they're so intimidating... then I would hear that we would be called the "elite 4" when we're all together... but looking at what we all have in common... at that same moment I realized that "hey I wasnt the 4th member it was mech mangoes"

Which made me realize that what other people were telling me since time and memorial was true... why!!!??? I cant believe it, I kinda knew it but I never accepted it. That I was no farking body/buddy...

It kinda makes sense I was just there to fill in the gaps until the 4th member came back... and I really feel Im loosing my hold on thing... I'm already in the cliff I might as well just let go of the edge... anywasy whats there to hold on to... I dont want to force to issue anymore... I farking tired of pretending that everything is fine and dandy... well it not!!! this is me fading into the crowd... distancing myself away...