left out

Christmas is around the corner and something is missing...
I guess I know... my family..
If its one thing I remeber in my CLE class is that Christmas time is suppossed to be with family... and the thing is aside from my biological family I find the debsoc my family... I mean, I fone needs help I try to help, If the other has issues then lets talk about it, I mean yeh!!!
But the thing is this strategy to speak of is working not only for _____ side but for _____ side...
Its disbanded us... I mean if going on break is neglecting that you have friends whose got your back no matter what, then the hell with going on a break... I mean no matter what PR we do this wont change until a miracle can happen...dude the thing is its not made me want to D more... its disencouraged me to continue but thats not it... I mean the sense of togetherness is lost... and one thing I know its that when the rail breaks the train gets derailed!!! and I believe that all these info's are worhtless. I'm with LV one day and the next I'm with Dani then the next I'm with Reggae and the next I'm with Badboy... I mean gone are the days we would meet, gone are the days wherein we were complete... gone are the days wherein we would be so close that nothing, nobody could ever split us appart!!! I know its a phase but how long... because if it prolongs I might forget how life was perfect before... I mean I've reached the point wherein I just dont care anymore, you hate me or you like me... all I know is I hope you've got mine to...

what a merry christmas its going to be... just that I cant share it with family... and the what I just hate was that the last school day of the year 2005 went down the drain... I mean yes we did talk but were we complete... yes we did play all together (DOTA) but was it as exciting if we were all complete... yeah we have our own thing s now.. its time to move on but the thing is I've made all of you my life... Its going to be like dying to move on... I mean I'm in soo deep that I got stuck!!!

Well I hope you guys enjoy your christmas and your new years!!! see you around!!!