family....

Its wierd... come to think of it the soc. has gone through soo many trials... the reason why it still exsists is because where family... and everyone knows this but do you really know why...
for example we get into fights... a little chat and a good nights sleep thats all it takes... just like a family... all different in attitude but forgiving in nature... thats why I specify the soc. as my cousins... we may have different parents but we get along... we may have differnet houses but we meet often... we may have different wants but we make an avenue to be alike... see why we are family, they say that home is where the heart is... and the heart can always be found amongst family...

I have 2 families:
0. God
1. Family(mom and dad's sides)
2. Debsoc(extended family)

I mean we worry if one is missing or not yet at home... we text each other to ask if their alright...
you see the, we dont get along at times but throughout the bumpy road and the narrow turns, we've made our way through those. Ofcourse like normal cousins their are tendencies to boast or to brag, maybe even sometimes to share whether it maybe funny or sad, even personally experiences... to me it just feel like I'm at home when I enter those doors of the training room(where ever it may be... we keep getting kicked out...damn it c", ) because I can find family... Immean you guys can relate... you aslo have cousins that you hate at times and cousins that you can really trust that you just share your life stories and all the drama and yadda yadda.... but in the end theres always that voice in the back of your head, asking you many questions... and when you hear that thats the inner you... because your concerned... because you care no matter what and thats what makes us winners in the end... break or no break(but we all know we wanna break...hehehe) its the sense of togetherness when you need it the most... its the sense of feeling of friendship but nit just friendship but Family... I cant really tell the soc. this in person because I dont know how to... its just a realization...

see how we've grown to accept each other no matter what, whether: poor, rich, jologs, corny, mayabang, bading, perky, moody, wierd, strange, or what have you...
is because we dont care... we accept each other no matter what... and thats all beacuse we treat each and everyone of ourselves as family... whether whats size or shape you are...

I noticed from other people that they're losing their fire, I hope its not because of me... you know what.. I was born to be evil but I've learned a lot from everyone at the Soc. on how to control it or how to change... more over I've learned when to talk and when not to... but recently I've just lost it... I just cant do it... being nice is just sooo sooo sooo farking hard to be... but I can do it but for now I cant... I've kept it canned up inside me too long that I cant hold it anymore...
Moreover the wierd thing is that, the recent thing that happend for me is just "water under the bridge" but others still have grudges... OK given... but the thing is theres like this big fat elephant blocking my way when I wanna talk to these people. because as I've learned they've been fed w/ misunderstandings... but I dont know inside me I wanna go near but my feet ain't walking its because of the indirect heat that you can feel ( cguro if you were at my feet you would understand) well whatever happens all I will do is take the best medicine recommendable : sleep!!!

but i also noticed that some people only talk to me when they need something and I hope that certain theory of mine wont turn into law... cause if it does... I dont know what to do anymore... I my self "kinda" lost my fire after IISDC, it was hard but it took a long time for it to rekindle... soo whatever the authorities say...I ain't NEVER EVER leaving... you wait for me.... cause I shall return... (tempo setbacks lang)...cause never is forever...