rant

ok soo today was an ok day
it started off well
but after the day progressed egos get big and tensions raise
i mean seriously im pissed off
why are people such c*nts
like im sooo pissed off
who are you to judge someone for musical interests
i mean thats soo shallow
comments like that are not just uncalled for
i mean we are all different why do people think cutting others down is soo much better
i mean really
good for them if they are happy
so have your fun the last laigh is to the one that doesnt prejudice...
as always manner and breeding comes first ohh well :P
haha
you cant fake nobilty

emotion

this what psychologists look for in a person to consider them humane. There are many different emotions and shrinks have many ways in helping their "patients" in the path to recovery. There is a question lingering in my subconscious part of my mind... "is there a way you can ever, eternally internally heal someone from something that has left them jaded, transfixed, or desolated for sometime in their lives?"???
One thing is for sure: Everyone always need time to think alone, gain closure(if there is ever) and vent, and of course by venting I mean in the safest and harmless way possible.
Ive had pockets of time to look at my past and its been a fun roller coaster ride. The thing is when you take a journey into the past you always take a walk through your present. Taking a walk through status quo gives you a perspective of what you have become. It is the same thing for other people. There is an old saying "you can not teach an old dog new tricks" and "call a spade a spade"
The extremely funny thing about drama and people is that we dont like it but we cant live without it.

im back, but as an arm chair critique or maybe a lobbyist

its been a long time since my debating years, but since then not one day goes by that i dont keep up wit world news, i have recently also polished up on my international laws, UN laws and Treaties, its been a blast, but i guess im too rusty to be put in the front lines of battle, im more of a political analyst now than rather being the senator or congressman fighting in behalf of the people, if I had the chance to squeeze debate in my heavy schedule i would, but a new world, new responsibilities, plus goals, one of them is to get better at tennis and maybe get into wimbledon, i just cant seem to find a proper sparring partner.. you know more of my age, the only blokes i get to challenge are int their late 30's - early 50's and dont get me wrong those wankers can hit the ball harder than a 18 year old, which is good, but i really really would like to play within my age bracket... i guess i just have to stick it out
anyways going back to my pseudopolitical life, I have been thinking of taking law, but thats a pipe dream... or is it? what you recon?

one things for sure there is the fire to improve and to learn...
young(18)
fit(tennis player, but can play any other sport as well)
focused(achiever)

straight edge

a new year another birthday, i turned 18 last month, and now im older people think i should be wiser, i dont... i feel exactly the same except that my body structure from last year and this year is seamingly bigger than before. When i say this i mean that if my face was small its a bit bigger now, not in the sense ive packed the pounds, in th sense that im starting to develop an older male body... which is ok.. my relatives and strangers around me still think i look like a 16year old kid, but i mean they are kinda true.. and at timew even younger... i was at the movies a few weeks back with some of my friends and amongst the group i was the only one who was asked for ID for a PG 13 movie... how lame was that.. tell you what everyone else behind us were laughing...
so anyways why straight edge? most teens would think its a hair style but for some its more than just a fashion statement or a choice of grooming its the everyday utensils or tools we work with whether at the office, school, and even at home... yeap im talking about sharp objects that can slice, dice and cut... its been a while since i last cut and that good, but recently ive been wanting to, but what for? my life seems totally fine but that would be an over statement, i guess it can be fucked up at times, but who's isnt...
ive been try to supress the feeling of cutting for at least 3 days now, very impressive right? i guess so..
but cutting isnt like a drug, its the pain you channel out, the frustrations, now in psychology you would be classified as menatally imbalanced, but i would beg to differ, really...
when you angry you either vent or supress the feelings
and when you supress you get it all bottled up till the jar cant contain anymore,
now istead on going balistic and mental on others (which could get you imrisoned)
i think its better off channeling the feelings in a better way, now im not insinuating self mutilation or hrting oneself is healthy and normal, but to those who so do it, give them something else to think about, something else to drown their attention to, the pain of the wounds...
and i guess its that pain some look for
as i am writing this i so happen to have noticed that next to my laptop on my desk the whole time was a sharp pair of scissors,ooooww tempting...
i will not tell you what happens next, it is up to you to decide what happens, but let me tell you this, a lot of people cut because of people who look down at them not because they cut but for who they are in the first place, and after that its down hill from there... so think hard before you judge before its to late for someone else...

Im back...

Life feels sooo good... I mean all the crap Ive written here at blogger was useless...cause everything then was totally perfect! It was just I and my friends had nothing to to but argue about nothing and then laugh about it in the end... hehehe... call it weird but thats how we get along... Anyway Im older now and Im better and Im still really close to my friends... it just hard when I leave... if I leave...(praying to G) but I know a good friendship no matter how far will last for years!!! hehe, No more complaining.. no more crap just plain me... try to see http://ateneolasalle.multiply.com

"perfect" life!!!

so finally my high school life is done... and I know that I havent satisfied all, as they say you cant have it all... but what bothers me is I was informed about some issues against me( must be envy) ... i cant believe it... I mean wow... I pity to who ever gets this message and you know who you are...
(note i might sound like a bastard but It must be done & Im going to put it in terms you can understand)
There’s this group "of people" which they thought they knew me!!! ad if they can read people so perfectly!!! As if when they speak its the gospel truth and that nobody's opinion can have any relevance or truth to the matter...Well I just don’t get it!!! The fact is people just don’t read... they like reading between the lines... they assume that there are hidden agendas in what people have to say... well welcome to reality!!! Where life isn’t all about trying to decipher a code... or trying to find the premise of the other person... It isn’t a debate!!! Shocks!!! If you've got a problem then I suggest major counseling!!! I mean you've certainly got a screw loose!!! get a mechanic to fix it and talk about mangoes
its a shame that other people think that their the brightest and their the best... and that everyone needs them... FYI... your nobody, you think you’re all that... your soo full of yourselves, truly highlighting the belief how you react is how you think!!! How shallow!!!
I guess the fighting mode... or the fighting spirit is just to over used!!! you cant runaway from the world!!! like a credit card has its limits...

Look who’s pathetic!!! What a sad lonely life you have...

PS: what ever you said about me... does that make you a more favored person... It just shows the bitterness in you... the emptiness in your life that you can’t just let things slide!!! because you know that if you let it go you wont have anything in your life...just like shopping its all you know... soo just stick to what you know best gossip!!! too bad...and to say quite frankly "I don’t give a damn about you" cause summing your whole being equates that your TRASH!!! Nothing!!! nada!!! I dont care if you meddle with my life cause all I will do is pick you up and throw it in the trash, where you belong!!!

sour grapping??? I think not!!! if you think your all that think again... you can never lose something you never had... problem is you think your sooo important that you magnetize people to you without any effort!!! haha!!! stop dreaming get help you need help!!! before you can help others, help yourself...

(in your own words): BITCH!!!

ito ang araw na ginawa ng panginoon!!!

yesterday it was graduation day...
and I couldnt be more happy knowing Im leaving all my problems behind...

Jinxed

So recently I havent been going OL for a certain reason and that would be because for once in my life I have finally discovered the Telephone!!! hehe... a funny thing I was taught phone etiquette and all that but I would hardly use the phone... If ever I would if it was for important stuff like business or school work or stuff, but never for fun or just to talk with friends for hours... and now I know why my other siblings stay on their own times...
So recently I have a couple of friends who make me use the landline to call them up... and I kinda got caught in the habbit...hehe... soo I was using the pc and the phone rings... so I answered it... and all of a sudden this guy starts interviewng me... and I (the total idiot) I was very curious about his motives and I was just answering out of kindness... I started to freak out cause his questions were getting to personal and I just started giving out white lies... hehe... so there... Im not lucky I think when it comes to fiber optics...cause recently even my multiply aint functioning well na rin.. arg!!! hehe!!! well another lessson learned... dont answer the phone... let the hired help do their job.. hehe!!!